Judges 6:11-16 The angel of the Lord came and sat down under the oak in Ophrah that belonged to Joashthe Abiezrite, where his son Gideon was threshing wheat in a winepress to keep it from the Midianites. When the angel of the Lord appeared to Gideon, he said, “The Lord is with you, mighty warrior. ” “Pardon me, my lord,” Gideon replied, “but if the Lord is with us, why has all this happened to us? Where are all his wonders that our ancestors told us about when they said, ‘Did not the Lord bring us up out of Egypt?’ But now the Lord has abandoned us and given us into the hand of Midian.” The Lord turned to him and said, “Go in the strength you have and save Israel out of Midian’s hand. Am I not sending you?” “Pardon me, my lord,” Gideon replied, “but how can I save Israel? My clan is the weakest in Manasseh, and I am the least in my family. ” The Lord answered, “I will be with you , and you will strike down all the Midianites, leaving none alive.”
The story of Gideon starts in that passage and in it we see just how hard it can be sometimes to do the things that God tells us to do. Gideon is approached by the angel of the Lord and when he is told to go out and defeat Midian his first reaction is how can I do that? I’m the least in my family and you expect me to do that? There is more to this story but for space reasons I will stick to this one point for now. Gideon is asking why in the world would God choose to speak through me? He is essentially saying look around, aren’t there so many other people who are better suited for this task? Isn’t that familiar? Have you ever asked that before? I have on more than one occasion, but recently I found the courage to step out and let God work, and it changed both the way I see myself and the way I see these kinds of situations.
I was riding with a good friend and noticed that something was bothering him. When I asked what it was he told me about his day and what had been going on. As I listened to him my heart began to feel so heavy and I felt that I should say something. But the things that were troubling him were things that I had no experience in and I felt like I was far from qualified for the job. My friend had years of experience and here I was feeling like I was supposed to give him advice and guidance? I thought who am I to give him advice here? But I finally found the ability to open my mouth and speak… my friend’s response was a blast of anger. He was already so frustrated with how things were going and then I had the nerve to try to offer him advice. I could not blame him and said nothing. There was silence in the car for several minutes. During the silence I continued to pray silently and just left it in the hands of God. I honestly didn’t know what else to do. I had really believed that God wanted me to speak to him but everything just sort of exploded, so I just prayed. The the silence was finally broken by my friend who said quietly, “you’re right, you’re absolutely right” I was stunned! I mean here I had stepped out on a limb and the limb broke, but God’s hand was there to catch me. He is so good and faithful when we are willing to trust him. My friend then asked me what he should do and I began to speak and more and more stuff came out of my mouth. All through that evening he kept coming back to that topic and asking me questions every chance he got and I kept speaking and being amazed at what was coming out of my mouth. It wasn’t that I was speaking out such deep wisdom but more that it was wisdom beyond what I should have. It was greater wisdom than I had in me. I realized that I had taken a risk and opened my mouth and God had filled it with his words. I was overwhelmed at that point and quite glad that my friend could not see me, with tears streaming down my face in the dark as he drove. I had been so afraid to speak out and yet I had and then God was able to use me and speak through me. If I had not stepped out in faith and spoken those first few words I felt God wanted me to speak then things would be very different. I would not be writing about this for one thing, actually it is quite likely I would not be writing at all since this was all a bit of a leap for me as well. But my friend was able to take the advice I offered to him that night and found ways to apply it to his life and change things for the better.
Since then I have had time to reflect upon that night and I have realized that there have been many times when I was in that same situation and never spoke a word because I was afraid. I wonder how many times God could have used me to change someones life for the better if I had only been willing to speak up. It is this fear of stepping out and speaking and or doing the things that God is prompting us to do that keeps us from seeing just how much God can do through us when we let him. He has all the power and wisdom in the universe at his disposal but he most often prefers to use us as his mouthpiece. Why? Well, what better way to show his power than to use such limited, finite beings as us? I know my faith has been built up from this experience and I am learning to let him speak through me more and more. Am I still afraid? Do I still hesitate? Yeah I do, but as I press forward that fear is growing weaker and weaker, and my spirit is growing stronger and stronger.. It is a journey and the progress comes in stages but I can not give up. If I do then I loose and the enemy wins and I really do not want to see that happen. Some of the greatest victories in history were won because someone took a risk. Sometimes if we want to see a victory we have to step out and take the risk of missing the mark. As mature Christians we have to be willing to put ourselves on the line to see God’s power flow through us. Obviously this is not the sort of thing that happens everyday but when it does happen we need to be ready. So the next time God gives you that little nudge what are you going to do? Maybe you will be at work and there will be a problem that you get the solution to. But are you going to step out and speak or think to yourself who am I to speak up here these people know so much more than I do. Or maybe it will be a co worker who is going through a rough time and God will give you words to speak to them. Or a complete stranger on the street or in the mall. The point is no matter how God wants to speak through you he can’t do it unless you open your mouth and let him use you. So if you have been getting those gentle nudges to step out and take a risk in his name then perhaps it’s time you took that chance. Start with something small like giving advice to a friend or suggestions at work, and go from there. You will learn as you go along. As I said it’s a process of growth. One that we all need to go through. So go for it! Open up and let God work through you. Sure it’s a risk but it is one worth taking. As you grow closer to your creator you learn to hear and discern his voice better and better. It is only through that close relationship that you can truly step out in faith and really trust him. That relationship is built by spending time with him daily. Talking with him, communing with him, loving and being loved by him, and THAT is what it’s all about.
T.F.Lemieux 7-11-2012